we should not shed tears. that is a surrender of the body to the heart. it is only proof. that we are beings that do not know. what to do with our hearts. - Tite Kubo

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Coagulation

My head is pounding and I don't know why.

The creativity that I know flows in my veins has been stifled. It's frustating. I can't write. There is so much I need to express, there is a chapter left undone, a story unfinished and I am incompetent to do it.

Boredom has seeped in and I am lounging around an apartment that is empty except for myself.

Goddamn.

I just want to write. I just want to create but I can't even do that. It's driving me crazy and I don't know the cure. I've tried different music, scents, clothes even for crying out loud!

Bah.

I guess I'll figure something out. I usually do.