Escape

I've been planning my escape for a while now.

I'm saving up so that I can fly over to Japan to visit my friend Kate while she's there teaching next year some time. It's going to cost a bit, so I'm starting now. I'm really excited and grateful that she's giving me this chance to do something I've wanted to for a while.

I had been thinking before of going there to teach myself and if I weren't dating Marty, there would be no question. I would be going. But I don't think I can go and leave him for so long like that.

But this is just the beginning of my escape. This will be taking place in the next year or so. Maybe year and a half. Not sure yet.

Either way, once I'm done college, I plan to go to British Columbia to live and work for a summer. I don't know if Marty will come with me for that long or not, but he did say he wanted to come to Japan with me, even though I don't really want him to. Japan is something I want to experience by myself. It's something special to me and seperate from him, you know?

I'd also like to live and work in New Brunswick for a year, so that I can be close to my dad again and learn about that side of my family.


My grandparents nor any one else in the family have any idea that I'm planning ANY of this. I know my grandmother would freak out if I told her I was saving up to fly to Japan and stay there for a week or something like that. She wouldn't like me going to British Columbia for a summer either. She wouldn't like a lot of things that I've been deciding and I know she doesn't.

She doesn't respect my decision to distance myself from my mother so that I don't lose control and possibly freak out and do something I would regret. I still have a lot of issues when it comes to her and it's really hard for me to stop thinking about the part of my past that involves her. I'm working on it though. I'm going to ask my counsellor next time I see him if he knows of any anger-management classes I could take some where. I need to control it.

That's about it for now. I've got to get going to my last Death and Dying class EVER and write my last test. Sit through my last boring lecture and then I'm off to work!

Cheers!