Fear will always make you blind

I recently got in contact with an old friend of mine from my younger years. Granted we only knew each other for two years, it was still a major part of my life and hers.

She's moved on so well since those days. She's married and happy; things I've always wished for her. I must admit I was a little surprised to find she had been looking for me. I've been spending these years trying to forget and she's been trying to remember. Well, she's found me now!

As I talked with her about one of our mutual friends and what has become of him, I realized something. He had never grown up and I had spent the 15 years we had known each other trying to save him. I think the biggest thing he ever taught me was that I can't save every one, no matter how much I might want to.

I wonder where this newfound friendship will lead us. She's told me that since I've missed her wedding, I've got to be there for the birth of her children lol.

Nothing can hurt us any more because we've been there, done that. We've both gone through hell and back since we last spoke and that has always been what makes us a special kind of friend.

But Christmas is coming! I have all my presents wrapped and put under my Christmas Wall. We don't have room for a tree, nor do we have one, so I put the stockings on the wall and I put the presents under them. It's quite interesting. My home-made present for T'Nasha is almost done. I've got some of the pieces out and together, it's just a matter of finishing the whole thing. I hope I get to see her this break. I think she might be able to come around on the 27th or 28th. We will have super-mega-happy-fun-times!!

Anyways, I've got to get going. Meeting up with the girls for lunch before work.

Cheers!